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03 January 2012 @ 06:35 pm
loosen up, kid  
I'm not going to be ambitious with hefty lists of do's and do not's this year. My only resolution is to stop hating myself, or at least not with such an intensity - for this self esteem problem is the core of the frustration with friends I could have liked with so much more feeling (currently a work-in-progress), the art blocks, the constant self-degradation that resounds every single time the pencil touches my unseasoned sketchbook pages or when I daydream about writing; the reason why I regress into status quo when some part of me knows that I would thrive in liberation.

This self-loathing made me turn inward last year, a blindfold to more optimistic possibilities I am (perhaps) unaware of, and if ignorance to my inner voice will give me some form of release, I will be working towards that. I have run away from many external issues last year and listened too hard to myself in confusing circles, which turned out to be a huge mistake - I will strive to reverse this order for these coming months to come.
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